Late night ramblings...

I should have been asleep hours ago.  I don't know if I'm just super excited (also super anxious) for our vacation which officially starts tomorrow, or what-but we are getting on the road in less than five hours and I have yet to sleep.

I've played on Pinterest, checked Facebook and Instagram countless times..  Question:  why don't more of you take photos at 11 pm?  I'm bored.  Entertain me with your infinitely more exciting lives via photographs!!!  

I've been thinking a lot lately about the kind of person I am.  Not to toot my own horn, but I am a great friend-  I'd do just about anything for anyone that I care about. I'm kind to animals. (Except the ones I eat, I guess... But they're tasty... And I appreciate their sacrifice.) I love children.  I work hard at everything that I do.  And while I'm self-centered enough to realize(and point out) all of these things about myself, I can't ever seem to not worry about what other people think of me. Specifically, I had a close group of friends that I worked with- very close.  At some point over the past year, each one of them stopped talking to me. Sure, part of me realized that people come into and out of your life for a reason.  These women were all there for me during a VERY difficult time in my life, and I will forever be grateful to them for all of their love and support. It doesn't stop the hurt, though... Or the hole in my life that is left without them.

I no longer work for that employer, and as much as being unemployed has put me in a crappy situation, I'm glad I don't have to be in an office with them anymore. Having to face those women every day, as they'd walk by me without acknowledging my presence was extremely hurtful.  And I didn't do a single thing to deserve that.

So how do you get to a point where you don't care about what other people think of you??  Two conflicting quotes come to mind. "What other people think of me is none of my business."  And "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."  I think I need to start focusing on the latter rather than the former.